Katti, there isn't much that can be added to all of this.
The path you're been steered to will get you facing pain and fears, alone, darkly alone. But around you there will be others, others you can hang on to. Seek them, ask for their joy. They will give it freely, plentiful, as we do it now... look to the bright. Be bright like I know you can... that's how easy courage is...