[Spoon Man]

Well TGS, I suppose that makes a good bit of sense. I usually find something that I like, that will work where I need it to work, and that won't make me want to smash it into people's faces, and then make it work from there.

The individual guidance that I've had have only served to piss me off. They see my scores and say "You should be in a think-tank!" me: "I don't want to sit in a damned cubicle and work with random theories all day, I'd go mad!" them "Nonsense, someone of your test scores and intellect should be in a place to fully utilize them! It'd be perfect for you!" me: "Your missing the bloody part where I go crazy and move to an island and become a cannibal hermit." Them: "My advice is to get a job at a think-tank style job or as a lawyer maybe." Me: "Well, gee, thanks. I'll go to law school and find a way to sue you for negligence."

While this is a bit dramatized, it really tends to be the sequence of the conversation. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the hell out of working with theory, especially when it involves people and why we do what we do, but if I can't bloody well apply it then it doesn't matter what I think of, and I don't trust others to run with my ideas until I've seen how far I can go with them myself. I enjoy working with people to an extent, a few constants and then the rest of them should be come and go, and the office routine can go up a bloody tree. I make tea and read the news in the mornings and I pray before I fall asleep, those are my routines and I'd like to keep it that way.

Children are fun, I can work with children plenty, I taught pre-school and after school for 3 years and loved it. I couldn't do it forever though, and I really don't want to teach children that young, I'd rather have intellectual conversations with my students (meaning students at least at a high school level) if I do end up teaching (it'd be a nice thing to do in retirement or when I want to live in a steady area, get married, have kids and dog, etc...) I really could enjoy a job doing executive level security, that would offer pretty much everything I'm after, except I'm not yet 21 and in the states can't carry a firearm.

So, maybe I want a Unicorn, but you know what, I'll get a crossbow and go hunting if its that simple of a task. I could do that, unfortunately wal-mart happens to be fresh out of Unicorn whistles.