What you need, good sir, is a good quick exposure to something intelligent and creative by a few people who could think. You need something well beyond the daily norm. Something thoughtful, stimulating, and inspiring. Here are a few morsels for you. Take a couple and call me in the morning, if you haven't killed yourself.
Jacob Bronowski from
The Ascent of Man:
Pablo Picasso's
Guernica:
Mark Twain's
Letters From The Earth:
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Edward Elgar's
Sospiri: