Moejoe,
I have a link for you.
http://www.kipling.org.uk/poems_if.htm
It’s the poem “If” by Kipling. May it bring comfort and wisdom to you as it often does for me.
If that doesn’t help, may I suggest the movie “Gladiator” and that you look for you own truth in that tale.
Strength and honor, my friend. Strength and honor.