[MonicaOP]

Hi, sorry, I just need a place to vent that is not twitter or my family. Feel free to ignore me.

I'm so tired!!! My father started to show signs of Alzheimer almost 4 years ago, but in the past 2 years it was when it really changed our lives.

With the pandemic it was easier to keep him home, but lately, with the fact that we had to close our small business, that we discovered he lost a lot of money and that everything keeps piling up things have been more difficult.

Until 2 weeks ago I never really considered the idea of having to send him to a home where people could take care of him professionally, but on the 30th of October he fell from bed and hit his head, on the 31th he slipped in the bath and hit his head!! And the first of November, he fell from the stairs and hit his head hard again.

He's been checked by his neurologist, he had a tomography and x-rays and we were so amazingly lucky that he had no broken bones or any new strokes, but his brain is really swollen.

He's not walking or even able to sit in the bed, I have to feed him in the mouth and worse of all, his mental issues are much worse right now, he's screaming a lot, acting out in really awful ways and barely sleeping and well he's not letting my mom or me sleep a lot.

The things he speaks about are really disturbing as well, 'cause we have no idea if they are real or not and also when he moves is hard 'cause I have had to get him back to bed several times and really, my whole body is in pain 'cause he's heavy.

I just hope the doctor was right when he said that my father is going to be able to return to being semi-independent and walking when the swelling on his brain gets better.

I'm just so tired!! Tonight has been awful, he's been yelling and arguing and speaking bad words for the past 5 hours instead of sleeping. I just hope he can get some rest soon, and that my mom and I can get some sleep 'cause is 3:37 am and he hasn't stopped.