That's the point. I don't know if you've ever had to overcome addiction but that is what I'm saying. The rigid mindset required, the fear of being consumed by whatever is causing the addiction is why it must be avoided/resisted/prevented at all costs. I know through multiple experiences in my life that I have an addictive personality (still fighting this internet addiction
) and virtually anything can become an all-consuming activity. What I'm saying is that I believe I have been subconsciously and to some extent consciously holding back because of this fear of being consumed/destroyed by it.