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Rumpelteazer · 10-09-2012, 04:48 PM

I just had what Oprah would call and "aha moment".

When I was nine I was sent to a different primary school after two years of hell. First I had a teacher who was back teaching after a year off for having a mental breakdown, however she wasn't fully recovered and took it out on children, me being one of her favourite targets. I was called stupid on a daily basis and often wasn't allowed to have lunch, instead I had to work through lunch hour. The year after wasn't any better, the head teacher was our teacher and he was a bully. At the start of the year we were one math book behind and at the end of the year we were one and a half book ahead; I couldn't keep up with that so I was called stupid again. If we asked any questions or said we didn't understand something we were called stupid and sometimes got punished.

At my new secondary school it didn't go any better. I was the new kid, there were a lot of kids with behavioural problems. Except for maths I was behind on almost all other subjects. I was bullied by being called stupid and ugly, some of those kids regularly beat me up after school. Some teachers tried to do something about it, others told me not to tattle when I told them about the bullying and beatings.

The bullying went on in secondary because half of my class went to the same school as I did. No more beatings, luckily, and I made some friends. Not until the final year did the bullying stop.

I've gotten over it mostly, I now know I'm not stupid. I still have problems trusting strangers but I have no problems making friends. What I discovered today was that I never really had gotten over the "ugly" label. I never really looked at myself in the mirror until tonight. I walked in the utility room to go to my bedroom and looked into the mirror and my first thought was that I have a pretty face. I've always like my eyes, but I've been losing weight and today I noticed how much weight I lost in my face. I actually have nice cheekbones!

Sure, I'm still overweight but I'm not horribly ugly and unattractive as I've always thought I was.

10-09-2012, 04:48 PM	#34620
Rumpelteazer Grand Sorcerer Posts: 5,505 Karma: 27926918 Join Date: Sep 2009 Location: Utrecht, the Netherlands Device: Kindle Paperwhite Signature Edition	I just had what Oprah would call and "aha moment". When I was nine I was sent to a different primary school after two years of hell. First I had a teacher who was back teaching after a year off for having a mental breakdown, however she wasn't fully recovered and took it out on children, me being one of her favourite targets. I was called stupid on a daily basis and often wasn't allowed to have lunch, instead I had to work through lunch hour. The year after wasn't any better, the head teacher was our teacher and he was a bully. At the start of the year we were one math book behind and at the end of the year we were one and a half book ahead; I couldn't keep up with that so I was called stupid again. If we asked any questions or said we didn't understand something we were called stupid and sometimes got punished. At my new secondary school it didn't go any better. I was the new kid, there were a lot of kids with behavioural problems. Except for maths I was behind on almost all other subjects. I was bullied by being called stupid and ugly, some of those kids regularly beat me up after school. Some teachers tried to do something about it, others told me not to tattle when I told them about the bullying and beatings. The bullying went on in secondary because half of my class went to the same school as I did. No more beatings, luckily, and I made some friends. Not until the final year did the bullying stop. I've gotten over it mostly, I now know I'm not stupid. I still have problems trusting strangers but I have no problems making friends. What I discovered today was that I never really had gotten over the "ugly" label. I never really looked at myself in the mirror until tonight. I walked in the utility room to go to my bedroom and looked into the mirror and my first thought was that I have a pretty face. I've always like my eyes, but I've been losing weight and today I noticed how much weight I lost in my face. I actually have nice cheekbones! Sure, I'm still overweight but I'm not horribly ugly and unattractive as I've always thought I was.