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Originally Posted by vivaldirules
Don't do it, Stichy! I did that, too, and failed.
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Thanks for the support, doggy. Have another doughnut on me. Having tried to quite countless times, and even lasting up to two years once, I've learned that I really don't 'want just one.' I want the whole carton. I want the routines that went along with smoking; the 'after dinner sit back, reach into the pocket and take out a cigarette, tap it on the table 2-3 times and put it into my mouth, reach for my 'special lighter,' open and ignite in one smooth motion, torch the end of the cigarette and inhale..... holding it for an extra second or two, then slowly exhaling...
Damn! That was almost as enjoyable as actually doing it!
I know full well that the minute I tell myself that I've 'quit,' I will try smoking 'just one.' So like the successful AA program, I say that "I'm a smoker who hasn't had a cigarette in almost 14 years. One day at a time. I didn't smoke today, and I pray that I won't smoke tomorrow." This seems to work for me, but I still think about smoking often... After all, I was a 2-pack a day, for 43 years smoker. That did fill a lot of time in my life.
These days I'm glad that I am not smoking for other reasons too. I see people standing outside in the rain and snow, walking out of restaurants between courses to smoke, huddled into little cubicles at at train stations, etc., etc., and am glad that I no longer have the physical addiction. It was certainly a harder addiction to stop than any others I've known, and I truly feel for smokers who want to quit but haven't found their way to do it yet. It ain't easy...
Stitchawl