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Originally Posted by CWatkinsNash
Sharky!! **hug** **hug** **hug** So sorry you're stressing. I have friends and family up and down the coast that are on my mind too. My thoughts are with you and your daughter. Keep us posted, yeah?
Thank you everyone for the support.  I just received my new e-cig in the mail today. I had one I bought a couple of years ago when I thought about quitting before (but never even got around to attempting that time) and it malfunctioned. This new one is awesome. A huge part of smoking for me is the physical aspect, so the plan is to step myself down to zero-nicotine cartridges over the next few weeks.
I'm also playing mind games with myself. The ecig I got is black. I figured getting one that doesn't look much like a real cigarette will help distance my actions from the thing I am trying to quit.
I've already gotten a couple of the "aren't you just replacing one habit with another?" arguments. Well, duh! Of course I am! I'm replacing the act of BURNING chemically-treated plant matter and inhaling the resulting smoke containing tar and carcinogens and God knows what else with a non-carcinogenic non-smoke vapor. Does it matter? Really? I don't exactly have willpower of steel over here, I need SOMETHING! I've been smoking for 22 years, fercrapssake! I'm replacing a habit that could KILL me with one that's a frackofalot safer!!! People need to give me some credit! This is a big freakin' deal!!!
I don't know why I feel the need to explain myself here, it's almost as though I'm acting out the arguments I'm avoiding in real life.  Getting it off my chest, I guess. I spent yesterday evening and all morning with the new boy and he got to see first hand how emotional this quitting thing is for me. I almost started crying at one point. Almost, but didn't. Don't want to scare him off, I actually like this one. But he totally understands that cigarettes have been like a security blanket for me all these years, and being with him really helped combat the cravings. There were only a few times when the pangs really got to me.
I'm rambling, aren't I? Sorry. Just needed to get it out, I guess. Thanks for listening. I <3 you guys!
Love and hugs,
LeBrat |
I thing the ecig is an awesome idea. Best of luck, I know it's tough, I did it myself, but you can do it! Ive gotten to the point where I have a cigarette once in a blue moon, and enjoy it without worrying that I'll start smoking again