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I'm so sorry, Exer! I can't believe that there are people with such hatred in this world. Personally, as there is nobody who cares anything about you, but only blame you (without ever thinking about your feelings!), I'd say, take your fond memories, and pull back. Don't let them destroy you, as I've got the feeling they're trying to do.
I presume you also had friends together. They will also help you keeping her alive in your mind and heart.
The one thing you shouldn't do, is return the favour. Never lower yourself to their level. That will only fix their ideas about you. Just pull back, try to see them as little as possible.
I've not lost somebody I've loved like that (thankfully!), but I stood by my grandmother when my grandfather died. And I know it did help her a lot thee was somebody she could talk to. But I doubt she would have pulled through if she had only had to listen to people who blamed her for her husband's death. Most people will understand if you really need to talk about her, remember her. Find those people in your friend list and continue living and loving!
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