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Originally Posted by kindlekitten
ok, so my vent... I feel soooooo disoriented (?) since I have been home. several times a night I wake up and haven't a clue where I am. this feeling hasn't happened since I was like 6. for a year and a half I traveled EVERY WEEK to a new city for a project I was on. not to mention all the other traveling in hte military and work and fun travel... just trying to say, travel is NOT new to me!
I keep hearing the front door opening and my Dad saying "I'm home!" he only ever visited me in this house 5 times.
I keep waking up thinking about what my son and I need to do in the morning. he's in New Mexico still.
I can't get much beyond watching Arwen and Strider playing. I feel aimless and drifty. is this part of grief? I was allowed to do active and healthy grieving for my Grandmother and Uncle, but felt so tied in knots with my Dad... is this normal?
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Big hug KK!! Like most people have said there is no such thing as "normal", everyone deals with things in their own way, and the way you deal with it will depend on the situation, so you may grieve differently for different people.
More importantly though, from your posts while you were there it sounds like there may have been so much other drama and side issues going on that you didn't get a chance to focus, and now that you do it might be hitting a bit harder than you thought.
Just let yourself know that it will pass and you'll be back to your old self shortly, with Arwen, Strider, and the Newf's help - and of course your friends here at MR!!