Originally Posted by kindlekitten
I smoked one the night of my uncle's wake, one or two during my dad's final illness, but really had no urges to do so at the time, it was almos a self defence mechanism
I smoked that 'just one' too many times and busted too many 'quits' to allow myself to think I really want just one... I must have tried to quit a dozen or more times, often for months, and once even for two years... and then smoked 'just one.' Was back to a pack and a half a day within a few weeks. This is the first time I've been able to get away from it. But I have to do it one day at a time. Like the sober alcoholic who hasn't taken a drink in 25 years. He knows he's still an alcoholic and won't drink today, and prays he won't drink tomorrow. Me too. I didn't smoke yesterday. I won't smoke today. And I pray I won't smoke tomorrow. One day at a time. ODAT!