Thanks for all the work Uboot!
used rupers AMR and then without thinking applied "enable adb"... and now im here :P
used the 2nd package. think it went for at least 7+ hours until the sd light stopped blinking.
I get the initiation every boot. Also manually updated it with the sony 1.04 update, but no change.
Now thinking if I should try the 1st rescue package instead..
Edit: (sidenote) before I did the sd-recovery I had it on "USB debugging mode" which seems to have survived the recovery.. don't know if it matters much though
Edit2: couldn't find the diag.log on internal
Edit3: went with the 1st package and seems to work ok now, USB debugging is still there though, didnt do a factory reset but never had the initialization problem.